Survivors Poetry

Experience of Abuse

Have you ever wondered what it is like for those who are abused?

They give you false promises, they tell you a lie
‘Listen to me’ they say, ‘I’ll help you get by’
They tell you its fine and assure you its okay
But little do they realise this isn’t a right way

You’re lost and confused, feel helpless and used
You don’t know where to look just experience abuse
You say it’s not real and they’ll be no more pain
But little do you know it will soon happen again

You distract your thoughts and shut down your mind
You leave everything and anything happening behind
Maybe it’s a punishment for when I did bad
But do I really deserve to be so sad

Guilty and ashamed is all you feel
Maybe I led him or provoked this deal
Confused and baffled are thoughts in your head
Was it something I did or something I said?

You long for it to end, put your hand up and say ‘no’
But did he ever listen he has the right to do so
The dirt and the shame lie close to your heart
But you still convince yourself you are apart

Scared and lonely are beliefs with you
Hopeless and worthless are thoughts you see through
You ask yourself why does this happen to me?
You sit and wonder, so let it be

Your image of yourself changes along the way
Fat, dirty and ugly you feel as you lay
Would anyone touch me if I was thin?
Do they know they are committing a sin?

Who gave him the right to touch my body?
It was clean and happy now it’s all dodgy
I feel totally hurt and fed up of you
You must be sick to do what you do.

Poem by Geeta Sarin

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