Survivors Poetry

You

You're like the tide as it ebbs and flows
But never holding fast
You're something I can see but not touch
Just beyond my grasp

You're like an itch I cannot scratch
Like an hour a minute long
Something so near but yet so far
Something so right but oh so wrong

You're like the tomorrow that never comes
Like a breath of fresh air that will suffocate
You're the light at the end of an eternal tunnel
Something that arrived on time but much too late

You're like a thirst I cannot quench
You're a reason to live but also to die
You're the warmth from the sun on a cloudy day
You're the tears that I'm forbidden to cry

You're like a puzzle that will never be solved
A missing piece that will never be found
Lost and wandering through my mind
Your footsteps echo but do not make a sound

Mind Distortion

Dream sequence
Night visions
A single frozen frame
A picture
A photograph
An image in a window pane
Finger tips ripple the lakes of time
Like shadows dancing in the rain

Time warp
Standing still
Everything remains the same
Moving forward
See the future
Someone calling out my name
Almost ready to take control
So deal the cards let's play the game

Neural static
Brain waves
Positive mental state
Blood pumping
Heart pounding
Ever increasing heart rate
Find the target strike out now
Get moving before it's too late

Wrong time?
Wrong place?
Born on the wrong date?
No celebration
No silver spoon
Never handed anything on a plate
Always fighting to prove myself
Now I'm taking control of my own fate

Looking upward
Midnight sky
Waiting for my star to shine
Damaged goods?
No instructions?
A fault in the design?
Or simply just another life ruined
Child victim of a sickening crime

Tried comprehending
Tried understanding
Where do I draw the line?
No sense
No justice
No one caught to serve the time
Too many years to seek revenge
So the life sentence is truly mine

Pathways

I lay alone here in the darkness
Staring upward at the ceiling
I think of where I might be going
And all the places I have been

I’m looking back upon my life
At things that weren't such fun
The loneliness tears and sadness
And what I could've done

I listen to my heart beat
Inside my head I hear my voice
Over and over it’s reminding me
This road I travel is not of my choice

I’ve come so far so much I’ve learned
Yet what remains unclear
Is how to make my life complete
And lay to rest my fear

A frightened child still lives within
Her tears roll down my face
As I lay here in the silence
She’s restless trying to find her place

I walk with her along the pathways
That echo with my guilt and shame
I try my best to comfort her
As she gently whispers of her pain

There’s confusion in her childlike phrases
She hasn’t the words to communicate
This leaves my adult mind in conflict
With emotions I cannot infiltrate

And so my life remains in limbo
No clarity can I find
No solution to break the barrier
Nothing to ease my troubled mind

I lay alone here in the darkness
And wonder if I’ll ever be
Free from the endless pain and sorrow
Of the frightened child inside of me

Poems by Lou