Survivors Poetry

A hug and a kiss

Tried telling the teachers, at school what went on,
They made us all feel, like we were a con.
Showed them the marks from where he'd hit,
But they didn't believe us, one little bit.

Nobody loved us, nobody cared,
We'd have all run away, if only we'd dared.
Shivering, shaking, I'm out of control,
Feel I'm no longer in the lead role.
Was it the convo I had last night?

Topic of conversation gave me a fright.
We talked in detail about what he'd done,
From the day all of my siblings had gone.
Terrified, scared, enduring it alone,
No Childine to call on the telephone

Back then no one listened to children in pain,
I wonder do they listen now? or is it still the same?
If a child came to tell you their being abused,
Do you sit and listen? or do you feel used?

Nobody genuine would make up stories like this,
Most of them really need, a hug and a kiss.
Sitting here now, all alone in my room,
Glad no one can see me, on me they can't zoom.

Tears running quickly down my face,
I finally give up, I exit the race.
Listen to me please! I need you to know,
The pain deep inside! I know doesn't show

But here in my heart I feel it each day,
Talking to someone, showing me the way.

The ultimate sin!

On March Twentieth Nineteen Seventy Four,
That was the day I thought I'd live no more.
The day he committed the ultimate sin,
But here today, I Vow he will not win.
I was but a child of just fourteen,
This terrible secret, he said 'must never be seen'.
So until today I have told very few,
Even my mother said she never knew.
On that awful day many years ago,
He ended my childhood that I now know.
Because he did commit the ultimate sin,
I had no choice I had to give in!
It carried on weekly for almost two years,
Left with him all alone living in fear.
When would it happen, would it be today?
I wish he had found some other way.
But now in my future I have to heal,
Keep the whole of my life on an even keel.
But I can remember the level of pain,
The memories in my head are very clear again!

Kathy